Be quiet

Hello

Im just fooling around

Go Away

Please go away
You can't stay
You have to flee
To make me free
When you I see
Dies my glee
And nothing say
Come what may

Me you pollute
As you collude
With my sadness
You're shameless

Deep hate
In a state
Of anxiety I feel
Just set me free

The Witch House
She could feel that hate even in the middle of the night, she hated them and she just wanted them to disappear. She wanted her place and her peace back. Also she wanted her silence. Hearing th if silly voicing going though the walls, those were such a pain in the a**ss....ace, she requ needed some kind of ace, to feel better....
It's so nice in the darkness
It's so silent the loneliness
As long as they are asleep
A kind of peace I kinda keep
Are we coming to terms
This me really concerns

Falling Back In there

Back
The numbs wanted me again in my room and even if they still don't wanna talk about the problem I'm getting aware of it, it's now clear that there's something in me that doesn't fit their mind - their place - out there - this is like an asylum for people that cannot suit the outside....inside here ....do I fit this inside!? I've been wandering in the outside lately but I always like to come back here, it's better, safer....

Falling into Fall
She was glad summer was gone. It was pretty frustrating looking at those people walking on the street while she was inside ....but the problem was not she was inside but that they were outside and she had to watch at them while bing kept closed in her room/cell.....now it was grayer and they seemed to be scared by fall....streets were now empty and that was a lot better, her captivity was getting better...

Shave Me

21 EX

And so they took her in this new room, there was a big machine like a robot, standing there speaking no word, watching her not, just standing there and then they introduced it to her....it's been. Every day they took her there and let them on their own in that room. That noise and that light ....silence and it's been ....that eye of the robot, its arms trying to he her but never succeeding ....and she was just lying wondering if it was a prize or something for she hasn't been good ....and it was like that and she couldn't do anything else than accepting it ... 

 

Shave me Again

Furthermore they told her she could then enjoy her hair again....last year that thingy started suddenly without explanation and they shortly told her, please give us all your hair. Yep, that was enormously horrible and it really made her cry but only for a bit ....then she said ok and went on...in that system of things ....where today they told her, ok ....you can now let them grow again! Yeah and they were waiting for her here I come and of course but she just let them grow a bit and....smiling she took her shaver and let them all fall on the ground, take them if you want! No way, you wanted them and I gave them to you and now I really am my own administrator.  So she let all the nuns got shocked and wordless but they were also unable to do anything and that was truly a source of happiness to her and to her freedom! 

Radiation

And so the nuns had been lying ...they had told her the treatments were over but instead that morning they took her to a strange doctor who told her she really needed this kind of cure....what was it all about? She couldn't understand but she knew she had to say nothing else that I'll do it....and then those tattoos, so little, hide points, four on her skin....still with her when she was in her room again...asking, how much more? When will I be able to be free again? And it was pretty scary for she couldn't say what freedom was all about, her past was just like a black hole and being out of there could only mean falling into it.... 

No Way

When the nuns told her her hairs would have soon started to grow again....she felt pretty puzzled about ....when she found herself in there she couldn't understand nor accept why those crazy nuns decided to shave her....and then? She kinda liked it, she took the shaver and did it, they were only millimeters but she set the things back to start....the nuns complained about it and closed her in her room/cell ....but she didn't care and looked at the prisoner in the mirror pretty satisfied....yep, maybe she was not free but not to anything...then she opened up her window smiling and she got out....while the feline were observing but snoring much more....

Radioactive

Zoo

The nuns took her to the zoo, she really didn't want to go there, she wanted to play with her computers ....the nuns gave her another one and she liked it pretty much....but then....those 3d models....she was creating ....but then that windy morning they took her far from....well, not so far....the zoo was so ..... beautiful ....she found herself in love with that place... Without understanding why....she ran to see the big felines and sat down ......near the lion....just like waiting for him to tell her something ....like he knew something to know to escape from that flat reality she found herself in...then came the lioness....she stretched a bit and got back to sleep....so she went on walking....she visited the tigers....the pumas and also the cheetahs ....she went back to her cell with so many questions but she didn't ask any....she wanted to pet her little big kitties....who were them? They were purring loudly in satisfaction....

 

Radioactivity Again

The nuns took her to the west wing....it was not yet closed but she was already gloomy for they told her one of her friends in there died ....it was a terrible news and she couldn't believe it....weren't those nuns as powerful as they were saying to be? She was sad but also numb and she didn't cry, she never did....so they took her to the west wing and did something to her to make her radioactive....to be true she didn't care, her mind was elsewhere as her body seemed not to be able to get free for good....luckily she managed to escape late at night thru a led open window and that was the best thing ..... 

 

I Hate You

And I will always do for you watered the monster flower in me, you saw there was a bad monster there indeed of me and you came closer, you played the friend to get closer and then you opened the cage, you smashed the lock and let it fly and eat me ....now I am a monster and I hate you coz I can only hate and I cannot stand what you have done ....you threatened me cheating on my loyalty and my friendship ....now I hate and you suck, this monster couldn't even stand your smell, you stink.....now you are .....she was thinking hard without understand who she was referring to. She was spending her day in her cell....

Sick Hot Air

She was feeling very ....like she found a place to be, the attic was the right place but the hot air was making that room like the nuns didn't like to be in... And they've been complaining a lot about what she was doing and she was thinking again everything she did was wrong and acceptable only in her mind....she grew stronger and got used not to care about that ....but she wasn't yet able to ignore ....

By the Pool

It was a nice time outside the building and she kinda forgot she was often feeling out of place and even out of range coz she couldn't fit that range but she was still trying to kinda fit for she knew there were good times and her friend just wanted to inaugurate his pool and like that moment in time so much she felt good in that....like .... like she had been searching for friends ....and she couldn't find any and finally she found herself in this pack that was celebrating friendship by the pool without saying what they were celebrating for real ..... 

Odd Injection Inside

Odd

And so they told her the west wing was so useless they were going to close it or at least those rooms where they used to close her... That closet got closed and she didn't understand why or she couldn't even believe it....she spent some time in her mind trying to forget those moments spent there, all the things they did to her and how much she got used to these....those memories weren't going to fade but she managed to be happy about it, despite she was still that kind of prisoner in there....

 

Injection

She went to the west wing once again and then the nuns closed it, they let a big chain secure the doors and it was over, not before tormenting her a little more and leaving her pretty dizzy and heavy...she was tired of that room, of the nuns and of the bars at the window....she wanted to escape....badly.....sadly ...

 

Inside

Locked in her room, she managed to think about a possible escape early in the following morning but when the nuns came and locked her inside it was the end of her dreaming of a better day...she had been gloomy and lonely all day but then she started to think about escaping ....  Then it got clear she wasn't even going to exit her room/cell so soon....her mind faded in the night and her hope drowned in the swamp.....of her mind....

Unbelievable

22. Unbelievable
What were going to do the nuns? She couldn't tell as they never told her what she was going to face...more liquids, more tubes and pipes...and then they told her the west wing was going to be closed and it turned out to be closed ...what did they mean? Did they let her sick ...or was her sick? They kept on telling her she was sick in her mind...all that she did was denying...it was so strange... She was going to have some liquids and some doubts but she didn't care about none...given that she was going to her cell soon...

Walking in circles

21. Walking in circles
She was walking in the sand room, a circular room full of sand on the ground just like those were horses are trained and people dresses silly try to look snob....she was trying instead not to look angry and twisted otherwise the nuns would have injected more stuff in her tired veins....anyway they did, they didn't like her walking and she didn't know what they wanted her to do but she didn't satisfy them at all and her veins got more strange liquids...

In There Again

19. Closed
And so the nuns took her back to the west wing and she got angry and frustrated and they didn't care. She didn't care neither about them and she decided not to get sadder .... The bars on those windows were stronger and any escape was impossible even in her mind.... She was thinking to escape that afternoon but the knocking on her door destroyed her hope for a better evening.....nope....

20. Good Morning Prison
Not that she was sad
Not that she laid in bed
Not that she wanted to shed
Just like a tree
In autumn, she was free
Instead just like a wild bee
How can it be she was able
To think about a fable
She was kinda unstable
She was trying to realize
How to sensitize
Who's there to sanitize
Your mind tagged as fool
So that at noon
There was no tool
To get free again
To get rid of the stain
Of anger in her brain

One o'clock

At Night

She was pretty numb as there was something puzzling her, something she couldn't get. It was night time and all the nuns were sleeping, a good moment to escape but she couldn't manage to breakthrough .....she was wondering. What am I doing in here ? What am I trying to heal? Every time she tried to say she was felling good and ready to go out no one believed her and they were all trying to convince her it couldn't have been possible, furthermore she often felt like they considered her a fool... The moon was there, looking at her and she also felt she was thinking the same....







At Day


It was lunch time and they left her in her room, no there was no lunch together, there was nothing to do with others and they still considered her unstable, still after all the treatments? Yes, they didn't dare to tell her why she there and they didn't care if she couldn't understand a thing of what was going on in there, not even in her mind....when she started to doubt about her mind she felt so bad she said to herself it should have never happened ....but slowly it was happening she started to see herself as they told her she was: a fool....

7-8-9

The moments were wrong
For any escape she did long
To go out
To shout
To feel free and wild
To step there to find
A moment to be fine
But there was no time
There was no escape
No way to evade



9-10-11
She was thinking about what she liked to do, what she liked to create thru her computers and why the nuns were so interested in that, why were they so intended to make her work hard? Why couldn't they believe she wasn't so sick to be there? They were treating her like she was crazy and they didn't believe she was not that sick....they just wanted her to work and work on those computers pretending she was making everything wrong...and at night when they let her lonely she could just wonder why she could just disagree with them all....

Where is my Storm?

Gone with the chains
Gone no more it rains
No more I wanna see
No more I will feel
That empathy turning
Into anger turning
Into pain
In the rain
I was vain
I was in vain
For I was ready to try
I was ready to even fly
For I found I could
They said I should
Stop with my being
For I wasn't feeling
But now I’m not
Now they are not

Almost

Threatening Me
And so the nuns decided she was not yet done with the west wing and she should not consider herself free, they allowed her to do to her room (to meet her pets) and even downtown (to her friends)....but she would have to come back the flowing morning for further boring things .... That was all that she got ... She was bored and upset but even happy and longing to exit that building..


Bloody Monday
And so it was raining and so it was locked and yet she wasn't free. She was kinda upset but also hoping to escape as soon as she could see a window ....she was ready and she was locked that was the worst thing but the best was that they told her they wools have let her go out ....she was ready and she was waiting..... She didn't want to do anything ....the west wing was almost over....

Wasted Day

It was all so wrong and topped with anger, she couldn't stand that imprisonment but had to swallow it all the same....not only the need to escape was overwhelming her but anger was dipping into her mind like a fusty and rot cookie she didn't like but had to eat the same ....she wanted downtown and got low down...

Rise & Fall

Hope
She's been hoping all day long not to be taken to the west wing...and no one called her, she was kinda happy but she was still dreading that horrible part of the building ....

Anger
She got angry, very much, too much.... They had to sedate her for she kept on throwing things .... Tossing then to try to calm her mind down.... It didn't work.... She had to go the following day and she couldn't stand it for it only meant that she would have been released only on Sunday afternoon and that simply meant her weekend was broken and she found herself crying in anger ....

The Punishment
After she knew the bad news she escaped, she was sad but she knew clearly how to do it, she spotted a window left open and she did flee, oh yeah, she said and came back only after midnight when everyone else was sleeping ....and her anger maybe was too...when she woke up they took her to the west wing, too bad, you've even too bad, stay in here and suffer, give us your weeks coz no one cares about you and your need....

In the closet
She was feeling bad, closed and closed until Sunday .... It was something that was tearing her in pieces ... Nothing was left just a little Sunday evening. Downstairs .... It was so boring and hurting to be closed in the west wing....and there was no way to escape, all the windows were sealed and all the nuns were watching over her and over the door...