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Falling Back Again

Back

Despite my wings are still on me and no one cannot understand them ....the lab rats are still able to let me out their labs...that's fine and my feathers are blacker than ever ....do I feel fine? Yes but my flight lessons are still the best things I happen to enjoy....

Falling into Fall

And yet another October and the sky getting grey and the days getting shorter and how much I like this as I'm standing on the roof with my wings wide open and I still can see the moon and it's shining in me and only on me coz they are all sleeping and only me, white moonlight on my black feathered wings...I like to walk late at night in the sleepy city that seems just a ghost of broken dreams, human dreams are easily breakable and they never tend to fix them....meanwhile I make my dreams as enough strong as I can live into them and let them think neither I do think...   

Shave Me

21 EX

And so they took me there to meet this enormous machine, enormously scary ....yep maybe for someone, for someone else and despite I felt pretty tiny under its eye and beneath its arms that were going round and round me without touching me but round what....do we really know and I prefer to say I don't care and while I watch it working and trying to look like a foe I look straight into its big weird eye and I think about something else just like my last flight and I so fly away ....

 

Shave me Again

All those lab rats told me that it was over, the time of shaving my head was over and I can now let them grow ....and so you tell me when I must take them off ....and then when I have to let them grow...bye bye babies....now it's my time to choose and maybe you just upset me right and too much taking them away but now I choose and if you say it's over ok it's fine but I really rule my head inside out ! Yep and so I just shaved me and it was so smooth and perfect just like my smile!

Radiation

And so those lab rats wanted me again on they filthy table, under their horrible and scary lights, so light so strong i could hardly see anything…they even tattooed me something, four points on my body, somewhere, somehow and why? I didn't dare to ask them…I just wanted to come back home and leave that place at least for that day …and they told me indeed, see you soon, you'll be again our scary and scared prisoner, well, youn know we mean patient, we really love you, we really love your brain, your wings and your everything, we wanna study you, unluckily we cannot do an autopsy but well, you know, come soon, we’ll be missing you ….well, I won’t and I enjoy my momentary freedom …. 

No Way

I can't seem to find a peace of mind about it, simple and useless matter, my hair....mess in and on my head....this lab ....those lab rats decided to shave me and destroyed my style and I did shed so many teas about it until I grew accustomed to that and I also started to like it and to see me like that, like a soldier and my power was not related to hair....so the lab rats suspended their games on me and my hair came out again messing up my mind again... I know I should be happy about it, I never do or feel like I am supposed to do...so I took the shaver and set my head back to my new normality....will they lock me in an asylum for this? Will they destroy my normality and peace again? I have a shaver and ....I know I'll welcome my hair sooner but for now, no, they are not welcomed and they are just cut off ...

Radioactivity

Zoo

Today I had to meet my family....well my fake one.... given that I am an alien....is that the reason I cannot bond with no one of them....my wings were completely invisible to them and I liked it this way....we walked and met them in a zoo....I like that place .... I totally understand those animals in jail....I feel like them...in a jail with all the comforts, knowing death would be outside, well they don't know that....but ....they couldn't survive ....could an alien survive among all those crazy humans? Nope....could I spread my wings in front of them ....

 

Radioactivity

They wanted me there again, the lab rats.....injecting poisons in my wings.....and they told me I've got radioactive ....and they told me "We really hope not to see you here anymore for you are so useless and we don't need you anymore!" ....then another said..."....we've never really needed you!"...

And then I was thinking about those humans....is it in the air of this planet? There in that lab ....they use to treat even sick humans....I befriended two of them.....and now they are dead... 

 

I Hate You

You know I had wings too weak to fly

You know I would follow you so high 

You told me to 

Follow you 

To go there

Anywhere

It was like the others

Were no and it bothers

To know you cheated

You really threatened 

I hate you and now

I can just say wow

You said you were lovely 

And you made me lonely

You are so bad and cold

I should have been told

But no one really care

And everyone did stare

At my fall

And u all

Can just stay in front of my 

Body, it's true that I was shy

But now I won't hesitate

Just like you didn't estimate

The size of your damage

So now I will outrage

Sick Dogs

People keep on chatting and sharing and doing many things to look like, to appear and to show off things the others doesn't like ....and I hide in my little cave, my wings ....not ready to fly yet....they really like to think they are the best and I smile for they fail and they only watch themselves reflected in a silly mirror that is lying.... 

By the Pool

And I was standing in front of the pool watching the crystal clear water waving a bit and staring back at me.... It was so beautiful and I could see myself reflected into it and there were my wings .....as black as always and then I was staring at them and I knew no one could see them in the real place ....no one took a look at my reflections and we faded as I walks back to my friends....it was a good time on that little corner of planet earth ....

Odd Injection Inside

Odd

It is odd how those lab rats said I wasn't interesting anymore to them...they didn't bother to ask me if I minded it and they just took another piece of my, of my wings and of my strength ....but I didn't care, they said I am so much strange I cannot be understood, they aren't the only one who said it and I'm not worry otherwise I was really upset to see them....my wings are heavy and not healed but they are still on my back....thru are still black....

Injection 

It was so strange to go there again, those lab rats took lots of my feathers and wasted so many words I couldn't understand ...they were so angry they treated me worse than ever....they left me late in the morning when it turned into afternoon and they didn't add anything...leaving me tired and a bit out of place....there was this gloomy mood and my poisoned wings, I felt extremely heavy and lost....

Inside 

I was thinking about a flight early in the morning, yep...that secret flight I try to manage once in a while...then I got scared and in the middle of the night I am still wondering if I should go or I shouldn't, then it was so gloomy ...those endless days, full of light and bright colors and warm air...I feel lost I need my a

Darkness ...I wanted to go but then I decided I just couldn't .....

Unbelievable

22. Unbelievable

I cannot believe what those rats are saying...they said they were going not to experiment on me anymore....it sounds as strange as it seems weird...well, it is going to be another morning of experimenting and then home sweet home...I don't care about anything else...I just wanna fly out...

Walking in circles

21. Walking in circles

I'm pretty tired to be in here but I try not to complain at all, instead I walk in circles and I let those lab rats watching me, they want me to walk until I fly but I will disappoint all...so they will be injecting me their silly and unknown liquids...I'll them do it and I'll let them do it over and over until they release me...then I'll try to fly again in that secret field of mine... 

In There Again

19. Closed

I'm tired and I'm dragging my wings in the hall of this crazy lab.... The rats welcomed her with some kind of measurements and nothing more.... The worst experimenting day will be tomorrow but when I step in here my wings get dumb and I cannot hide them like I always do, I cannot hold them up and they seem like dead.... They are heavy and I'm tired and soon I'll hide in my room even if I would like to lock me inside....but no....  

20. Good Morning Prison

Not so good indeed, 

Coz all I need

Is to flee

Impossible any escape 

So I must face

My hard fate

The sun outside shines

As my mind finds

Strength, denies

My request for complaining 

No more, sustaining 

I'm bad, I'm refraining 

I just keep walking 

Without talking 

Words are mocking  

One o'clock

At Night
It is pretty late and I still wander with my mind in the night....what I should do? The lab is just a nightmare always there and there I don't wanna go....this night is heavy and I wanna lay, nothing to say, my wings are heavy and my thoughts even more...I feel like walking in a sea of poisonous water, while the moon becomes the sun and sinks in the clouds so black, like my fears and no tears but only rain drops wet my face as I stand in little rage, trying to find my alien race..?..

At Day
I feel fine but I don't wanna go to that crazy lab again, I wanna let my wings get healed within pills and experiments .... Every time they look at me, at my wings, it's clear they think I won't fly again.... They told me my wings won't rot and fall but they are not made to let me fly here ....in this planet.... I don't feel sad about it, I just want those experiments to stop....

7-8-9

I feel like I'm lost
The place I like the most
Is far and I have to wait
Is there and I feel the weight
Of my wings dirty
Of my mood shortly
I'll feel like a fool
It will be so very soon

9-10-11
It's been a strange week, so very fast and so very busy....I wonder how I manage to be busy when all the world thinks I'm just unemployed.... And then I still walk around after midnight and I like the night and it's silent and it's emptiness ...distant sounds from my neighbor soon quit and I'm lonely in the night ....finally all the work is gone and I still would like to fly out ....I've been trying to fly this week, a bit and it's been so good...

Stormy Night

It’s stormy and it rains
Drops on my chains
Do I let them flow
Do I wanna show
My teeth almost fake
Or my sorrow’s lake
Anyway I am strong
Even if I was wrong
I know I can
Simply stand
In the rain and let them
Talk, I’m not their stem

Almost

Threatening Me

The lab rats have been pretty bad this time, they didn't let me go for real despite they said it would have been over today .... They let me go this afternoon to let me enter there again tomorrow morning for further boring things and more absurd observations of my wings that are getting  incredibly heavy and tired....anyway I'm soon gonna flee downtown and enjoy this little freedom I've gained ....  

Bloody Monday

My wings are bleeding and they want to take some blood to test them to something I don't even wanna know, I don't ace and I'm bored ....I wanna go out even if it's raining...and now they are going to put me in a room with some pipes and things I still do not wanna know.... I need to breakthrough .... I'm not so fit now and I'm not sure I'm able to fly but I sure wanna go and try it as soon as possible....

Wasted Day

It was horrible, yesterday, it's gonna be awful, today, the lab and their tools and their look, odd thoughts and weird glances I can't stand .... I would like to open the window and fly and least to ground but the little windows are fixed and none of them will ever open, I'm in a box and I'm angry and I can't do nothing but accept the bitter truth....

Rise & Fall

Hope

I couldn't stop hoping not to go there to the lab coz in a moment in time they come and knock at the door of your home, they knock and you have to open and they take you there, they take you and start experimenting on you, on me, on my wings....on my dreams, they try to destroy it...

Anger

And finally they did it, they came and took me there, they destroyed my day and my weekend and my week was also to throw away....I felt horrible, deeply sad and mostly lost in my anger...how could it be so horrible?

The Fall

Just when they came in I got out from my window, in the night, in the field, empty, full of darkness and just for her, she tried to fly but her thoughts were too heavy....and then they came and took her where she had to be...

In the closet

It is done, I feel sad to be locked here in this lab, in here where everyone is sad and gloomy and so I fit in very well...my wings always wither here and I hope they'll soon be able to let me try to fly....I wanna go out but I can and I'm fading in here. I'm walking down the hall, up and down, in circles...

Where am I?

17. Inside
Nothing to do. The strong wind and the rain keep me inside and my wings are withering...I can feel them as my need to fly is greater and greater and it's getting heavier ....

18. Outside
Finally the wind went off and the stars came out...I opened my window and managed to plane ...I flight a little in the dark and landed on the street so that I could go to that field and train my flight again...

19. In the Middle
Downtown, where no one sees my wings but everyone knows I'm an alien. Knowing it doesn't mean accepting it anyway...and so I was there pretending to be a stranger who knows someone and enjoys some ones....

20. Nowhere
They are all celebrating Easter....what is this? I've been taught to celebrate it but what does it mean? Just eating a lot and noting else? This is what many mean, Easter is eating...I cannot say I'm not angry but I'm not celebrating ....

Watching my Wings

10. Little late
I always love to dive into the net those humans had made and I feel like I've found a place to build my world....virtually but still cozy and still it is mine....then I'm always late elsewhere in this planet ....

11. Ready to run
And I'm always ready to go out and try to fly, in the moonlight and also in the darkness and most of all I try even knowing my wings are broken and I won't fly so very high and never ever far ... Yes, I do, I open my windows and fly for a while...

12. Silent hill Saturday
Back at my home listening to distant frogs ... Wishing to meet them in person...after being downtown ....I find the suburban area pretty relaxing despite there's still something downtown has more: my friends ....

13. Ready to hope
I'm already hoping ...coz I don't wanna go to the crazy weird lab this week, I'm too tired and already angry about it....I don't wanna go and I'm already hoping .... I almost hate them and I don't wanna see them at all...none of them....

14. Don't wanna go
Still beyond midnight fence and listening to the wind of this too warm day...I've been listening to the swallows and that's another sound I don't like for it is only the sound of spring and I don't like it anymore...still praying not to go in weird and odd lab this week, I wanna be free...

15. Horrible
The worst thing about my wings is not that they are broken ...it's when I don't wanna fly....or even worst when I can't ....I'd like to open the window and fly but it's so sunny and I know I can't fly in the daylight ....I just can't and days are getting longer, so longer...too long...I feel heavy and the only idea of flying seems hard even if I need id..... lying instead of flying.....